“I’m not Doing enough” Really?

May 16, 2012 by

   Being willing to receive judgments  has become the greatest gift of my life. I have spent a lot of time pulling my barriers down and receiving the projections people may have of me. More often than not, a lot of those judgments about me are really judgments those people have of themselves.When I was a kid my mother would say that if you point your finger at someone, remember there are three fingers pointing back at you.

Receiving, for me, has been a journey of unplugging from all the triggers that make me want to be right and someone else wrong. I am so much better at not having a point of view about what others think of me. (Most of the time)

However, just recently I  discovered that the person I have been unable to receive judgments from the most was “me”.  I have been judging myself as not doing enough or not being enough. Whenever that judgment reared it’s nasty head I would shut down and try to clear the heaviness in my universe. Clearing all the resistence to working, money and business. It is so funny because I never thought of that as a judgment. I was treating it as truth and an awareness. I have used judgment of me to get me to do things my whole life. Being so close to “me” I couldn’t even see it as a judgment.

I know the easiest and fastest way to move from judgment into allowance is to  not resist and react to anything or align and agree with anything. This morning I sat with the energy I was creating and I simply said, “Well Brenda, that is an interesting point of view that you think you are not doing anything.”  Immediately my universe lightened up. The heaviness went away and I soon became aware that my desire to play in the sun and indulge in pleasures of the flesh, created so much energy and creativity in my universe.

One very powerful truth that I teach people all the time is that “Nothing can come into your universe that does not match your judgment.” Holding the judgment that I was not doing enough, created a stagnation in my universe. I was unable to even see what my choices were creating in my life. All I could see were the places where I was not doing enough. Funny.

Upon unplugging from this point of view a flood of energy has entered my universe and I can now see what my choices have created. I am ready to start my book now. This book has had fits and starts for over two years now and it oozes with sex and consciousness. Let’s just say I was doing research and development. How does it get any better than that?


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